A Deadly Mechanism

I am running out of time The seasons in my mind Are changing, too fast for me to keep track So I murder the little part of me That took the burden to care about what I see I am slipping out of sight I'm fading with the light I'm becoming one with the background Noise, pathetic so I just let it in Apathetic, so I let it begin A deadly mechanism it is Now I am caught in my own abyss If I can gather the strength to think Then under the weight of my thoughts, I sink Closed circuit loop I am trapped within Going nowhere I haven't already been No hope of escape so I'll just stay here This place turns anxiety into fear It's too much to all take in The ice I'm on is thin So I think I'll just fall straight through Doom is easy, it's what I already see Abject terror, fed by uncertainty There's something informing me Something I cannot see Something with sinister intention I hear the whispers each time I make a choice When I focus I realise it's my own voice I'm certain that I have been here before But now I am less when I should be more And every minute I spend in here My mind becomes so less clear There's a trick to this that I just cannot see How this thing works is a mystery The harder I thrash trying to break free The more I can feel it draining me