STEP INTO THE OCEAN

This isn’t what i wanted I don’t know what is good Should I take her out or leave it With guilt i’ll be consumed She showed what she was made of Bends and aches before she breaks I’ve got nothing to give her And something dark inside her shakes I don't know how to help her As she lay there in the litter Red and flowing with the river She doesn’t know i need her

Hands at your side as you sneak in We shouldn’t do all that we’re told Strip down until i see your soul Head on my heart I feel your pulse The way you send me to the clouds I never want to live without Mold your hands into my muscles I never want to live without Like clockwork we comedown in droves I never want to live without Hands at your side, head on my heart I never want to live without you And after all that we’ve been through I still can’t write a song for you

Oh I wonder where we'll be Oh I let myself down Oh I never knew what I had Oh I wonder where we'll be We're all waiting for an answer Or a world where we don't need to try Curious 'til we die

You were the center of my heart Then i let my brain get stepped on While you lay facedown flowing with the river I should have known right from the start That everybody has a weakness And mine was found at this nadir But now i can see some direction Ran out of sins i must confess I've got to get out of the city Before I burn it to the ground I can’t help thinking it’s worth staying But what is not lost can’t be found And i will step into the ocean A lack of comfort in my way The future will be full of mistakes Or present's mistakes here to stay ‘cause This is the best part of the worst days of our lives This is the best part of the worst days of our lives This is the best part of the worst days of our lives This is the best part of the worst days of our lives And i'll keep rearranging my things Unless you break apart my mould End the clockwork, ease the tension And i'll keep coming back to hold you This is the best part of the worst days of our lives This is the best part of the worst days of our lives

I was always taught to remember all my manners But i will fight if you become a barrier I hear all your words of hate All they do is motivate It's impossible for me to pack it up and withdraw I can’t feel my legs Can’t fill my lungs Can’t hear my thoughts Can’t stop the push But that's part of it But i drive it up I’m not gonna stop til i get what i want I keep on moving Though it gets harder I’m pushing it farther ‘cause i know that i oughta I drive it up I don't want to be a bloated belly of a seated donkey Idle festering lifeless procrastinating Found out all the ways i can bend and ache before i break You swallow a pill Ease the pain while you have your fill But i drive it up I’m not gonna stop til i get what i want I keep on moving Though it gets harder I’m pushing it farther ‘cause i know that i oughta I drive it up They tell me that i can change it I do believe i can change it I swear to god i can change it God or no god i can change it

Curious the kids escaped from hometown We traded love for lies But i don’t wanna go back there ever I don’t wanna be told that everything’s just fine Oh, I wonder where we’ll be Oh, I let myself down Oh, I never knew what i had Oh, I wonder where we’ll be I gave up waiting for an answer A world where we don’t need to fight But none of that matters anymore None of it matters with you by my side And i try not to think too much about it I love you i need you more than everything under the sun

I. They're gonna ruin this town They'll burn it to the ground Why must it be such a problem To be a little uncool? But now they're all in school Planning our great destruction I can't keep up with the trends I’ll follow you instead Isn't that what everyone does now? They said that E!’s got the facts And Food Network’s got the snacks I can't afford that I never know when to say it but i know how to take it ‘Cause i can't keep up keep up I never know when to say it but i know how to take it ‘Cause i can't keep up keep up Last night a wordless chorus echoed through the basements I didn't understand it Lalalalalala It was in unison And it meant everything If MTV’s got the hits I must be in the sticks Missed out on sexy violence If liquor's all we need to save the city Then shove it in my face I never know when to say it but i know how to take it ‘Cause i can't keep up I never know when to say it but i know how to take it ‘Cause i can't keep up You never know when to run so they cut you down It's strength in numbers II. I'd rather die than never find out I never know when to say

I never know when to say it I know they’re ruining this town They say they got some concerns, yeah I’m gettin’ used to it now This is so familiar (I used to see them pull this shit back in the 90s) We might’ve met back in high school You were there sheltering your kids Now they don’t know what is good, yeah Can’t even afford the sticks This is so familiar (I used to see them pull this shit back in the 90s) I swear to god I can change it They’ll die before I can change it

she's too good to me now she's too good to me now

down st. alphonsus, where the weak take shape uphill we climb to drink away the pain we came here to buy all the shit they spew but all I see are your baby blues this isn’t what I wanted you stood up on your own I’m dreaming I’m inside you even though you’re not around no party can replace you it’s fleeting like the sun but I can lock myself up where there is only if only you were here then I could be sincere with myself but you’re too good for me I used to think that I was sitting pretty now I can’t even make my bed and in my mind I’m anxious it’s eating me alive like garbage on the corner it’s festering it thrives if only you were here then I could be sincere with myself but you’re too good for me I can’t force you to love me but in my mind you do say I’m a fool for waiting but perception is the truth

This is not a game it's a ritual I need for you to trust me We know all the things each other do And we came here to do amazing things But i don’t wanna end this feeling that we’ve brought into the room But look at those kids up miles above us Don't want another year of bored and nervous But I can't take my eyes off the rules So you take me into your room And you pull me out of my clothes I mean it when i say I never want to end this Then I take you into my room And I pull you out of your clothes You'll mean it when you say I never want to end this Is it okay to feel this enlightened? It feels like i’ve been born a second time This time i’m in the dirt So what do other paths give way to? The curious abandon If we don’t belong, turn and revert ‘Cause this is not a game; it's a ritual And you and i collapse into the surreal So you take me into your room And you pull me out of my clothes You mean it when you say I never want to end this

Sometimes I worry too much Sometimes I worry I’ll never say the right thing Or the wrong thing Or anything at all Because the infinitesimally small chance of saying the evil thing is greater than zero And that is enough to haunt me Sometimes I’m ashamed that I allow these things to tear away at the tissue rolling around in my skull and the tissue pumping the red stuff all over my body I’m ashamed that I’m becoming comfortable with a future where I cannot speak up Or I no longer want to Because she’s too good for me to look at her honestly And accept her very real flaws And love them Like I love myself But do I love myself Or is it easier just to forget?

I need you to Forget everything I'll make it up to you someday Don’t say anything Nothing at all This is for your own good I swear I‘ve seen what‘s next You’ll see real soon Won’t feel regret before I run (out of your bedroom) I‘ve dragged you down Poisoned the room You‘re better on this path alone Can't feel my legs Can't fill my lungs Can’t hear my thoughts But I’m living without you Take all your thoughts Throw them into the river