The Yearning

[Verse 1] Forever waiting For you to take me in No, not you A version of you I want to see you so I can remember I deserve nothing And so my shriveling feels justifiable [Verse 2] When I do, I don't Hate myself As much as I did back then for not behaving well For being jealous Moody or illogical at times But mostly, for not taking your shit Even if it wasn't graceful Even if it wasn't perfectly executed Oh the pains of growth Ohhhh! [Bridge] I feel bad for my obsessed little friend And how much of herself she would've given To be seen Yes, I feel bad for my distressed little friend And how much she needed And didn't know how to get Get! [Chorus] And we'all. We all Despise the yearning We'all. We all Despise the yearning But how else Will we know How to get What we want? Oh! And! We'all. We all Despise the yearning We'all. We all Despise the yearning But how else Will we know What we want What we want

[Verse 1] Don't know how to see myself as valuable Without doing something to 'earn' or 'prove' it I don't see myself as valuable As a piece of existence [Verse 2] In the image of God Something intended I move on instinct Using convoluted equations To avoid pain and blame Can't sustain myself On being seen as good enough [Bridge] I'm losing my mind (I'm losing my mind) I'm losing my mind (Can't move, cannot hide) I'm losing my mind (Everything I've tried) I'm losing my mind (I'm losing my...) Losing my mind [Outro] I am losing my mind (Cannot run, cannot hide) I am losing my mind (I am losing my mind) I am losing my mind (Cannot run, cannot hide) I am losing my mind (I am losing my mind)

[Verse 1] Ever since I was a little girl I've been waiting for the end of the world And now it seems like My worst nightmares’ ‘re coming true Before my dreams Have even Left the ground [Chorus 1] Death is playing, games with me Pulling the ones that I love But I'm still alive I'm still alive [Verse 2] I'm just waiting for a bit of air I'm just waiting for a moment to not feel Brokenhearted I'm just waiting whilst with hate they breathe [Chorus 2] Games with me Pulling the ones that I love But I'm still alive I'm still alive [Verse 3] Ever since I was little girl I have felt the weight of the world on my shoulders Stunted and so very unprepared for getting older And I can't help but feel so left behind All of the time [Chorus 3] Death is playing games with me (Poor rosy eyed girl) Pulling the ones that I love (Doomsdayer) But I'm still alive (When you’ve figured it out) I'm still alive (You can judge mine) I'm just waiting for a bit of air Just a bit air Just a bit air