The Light at the End of Decay

Daydream away, love's unconditional Imagine days, no dysfunction in my family name Memories distort, her love is my passage to pain Her recollection smiles, the past says anger untamed Can we reset, try to be average? Data's not on our side I'll break the cycle tonight Wanna keep me in your mold made to fit your lack of control You're getting older now you shoulda known You can't contain the world through scream and shouts Anger bouts, sowing doubt Biblical threats are empty And living is better when you get free Patterns repeat, love cloaked in poison A trauma bond disguise, another tearful goodbye If you ask me can we start over? I'll simply decide for no more cycle to ride So what if you claim to change, change your tune Reconsider everything it is that you do The only thing worse than a first chance Is to turn back around and offer two Your codependency whirlpools around And I'm dodging tides so I won't get drowned All I've ever wanted was a home to call my home A caregiver you've become, your new improved tone Offering dreams and my wishes to come true But the hidden dagger in your hand isn't new Too little too late the past is past Will you resent, regret, chalk it up to fate? You made a choice a long time ago When a child in your life needed you the most No words of affection and pressure on my skin Gonna make sure it won't happen again You trivialized, minimized, infantilized I'm grown up now, you can't pretend My daydreams say love's unconditional

Scream decades old secrets well known Breaching walls can't be ignored Closed your eyes, turned the other ear While the town embraced me My words become chemicals Features become visible My disappointing potential Can't pray me away Blood ties last where nature thrives I'm a freak why even try Newly strangers that's what we are Never know me You always said you wanted a boy Shared his name, what coulda been We could reinvent who we are You don't want a part of it Blood ties last where nature thrives I'm a freak why even try Newly strangers that's what we are You don't know me Symptoms signal what's to come Never heard me then why would you start now? Love won't thrive in frigid cold It's warm out here, why would I fold?

We're recalling all the scenes that we see 'fore our eyes Yet another movie screen drained of life, dulled through time Re-arranging the designs, clearly traced, thousand lines Underestimate the noise, cup your ears, find your voice My continuous relevancy Nothing changes but my apathy Reflections follow behind Depictions of our lives Cruel way to remind Distractions dissolving Escapism's no escape Removed humanity Painting pictures by the sea You and me abstracting Nothing else is made for me Silver screen Every television show filtered through shades of gray Join a nuclear family, work by day, eat and pray My unfortunate relevancy Nothing changes but the urgency Distractions dissolving Escapism's no escape No humanity Painting pictures by the sea You and me abstracting Nothing else is made for me Silver screen We're recalling all the scenes that we see 'fore our eyes Yet another movie screen drained of life, dulled through time My continuous relevancy Nothing changes but my anxiety There's another marathon No one shows, cut the line

Fantasies of mechanic undead Vengeance for sins we commit Tragically grounded in the mundane Famine is right by your bed Sci fi titans the flesh they are fed Run off instinct to behead In reality nothing has flair We'll march through the heat to our death Fantasies of mechanic undead Vengeance for sins we commit Tragically grounded in the mundane Famine is right by your bed Stillness, a feeling of familiar Desire, a lack of experience A longing for what we’ve lost, what we don’t know What exists in the dreams of past selves memories A wish to conjure up a magical force to pin blame for the lack of rain Inability to hear my thoughts, a needle drop Serenity never has been seen It’s getting harder to breathe Empty your head and walk outside Witness the dwindling flocks fly by A slow moving chaos descending upon us Enemies created to explain away Monsters we lean on to save the day It’s hard to accept outside of a game What sacrifices will have to be made To gain shade, grain, some rest A longing for stillness Warm skylines dust my eyes Ashes rise Mech police can be beat But first Stand still, listen, listen There’s no glamour to be found in this situation Do or die, high crime, let’s go out with a boom No time to be afraid when the score says doom Bug mortality 90%, algae in bloom No place where waste isn’t up to the waist Food supply left with a terrible taste Oceans is toxic, the forest is rotted And these rich motherfuckers think they got it Digital this and technology that A quick fix with a beverage or a baseball bat A pocket full of magnets, a stroll around the block Another server farm down, a system laid in shock No bot deliveries, puppy dog machines Spray paint and a push, state surveillance wiped clean Throw fent on the cops, make the wealthy flee Make em rot inside the bunkers they retreat Warm skylines dust my eyes Ashes rise We’ll defeat mech police But first Stand still, listen, listen, look Fantasies of mechanic undead Vengeance for sins we commit Tragically grounded in the mundane Famine is right by your bed Sci fi titans the flesh they are fed Run off instinct to behead In reality nothing has flair We'll march through the heat to our death Fantasies of mechanic undead

What if we could know every spell Incantations to lift us from hell In our story we touch the stars Wondering how did we leave off so far Every plan is a myth Chasing a normal that doesn't exist We deserve outer space When we hold hands the planets should spin All the stars should be in our reach Yearning for life get labeled a leech Search stability stars rain shards Our lives should not be so fucking hard Every plan is a myth Chasing a normal that doesn't exist We deserve outer space When we hold hands the planets should spin Planets should spin

1.. 2.. Familiar song He does so wrong He shows up everywhere Travel by the stair Fast fashion rocker wear This decade’s trendy hair Opportunity, collect, connect Familiar song Radio play for days with my budget Picked it up off a blog and I flipped it so they love it You do no wrong Yeah we both want a foot in the door, but I got bigger boots Leave you on the floor and I take the loot Social chameleon Captured everyone Key demographics and shit, I got it You’re blending in and out So you caught a sheen of a false grin Try to explain what it could mean to the boss then Infinite game of clout I played for free at his daughter's wedding I doubt he'll be forgetting Visibility Your favorite song Go ahead, move along Nobodies aren’t worth a dime Nobodies will waste your time Somebody we pray to be Nobody is waiting for me Seeking another bus Throw under any trust Possibilities When climbing up Ain't nobody askin why they work so hard and still not passin me Flashin smiles white as anthrax in stadiums at capacity Tapping on shoulders with smoldering eyes Pure levity my disguise while i grind my teeth and privately spy To properly rise, I'd be yapping bout some artistry While a part of me shrivels up and probably dies I'm pulling fly guys aside and clipping wings off With my lovers I scream, but then I sing soft I got two faces in two places for different schemes If you catch me then I come back as someone you never seen And snatch hearts like I snatch lead parts Pretty easily, my fame got a name that itself is art And if friends see the mask slip it's not the end I can remind them of that little thing we know from back when And let them all live in fear for their fragile careers As they age over the years, I'll still be right here I know you hate it seeing me (you) on projects your (my) parents love and when you slipped em a CD they let it rot up in the glove compartment Nobodies aren’t worth a dime (Nobody, nobody) Nobodies will waste your time (Waste your time, waste your time) Somebody we pray to be (You pray to be, you pray to be) Nobody is waiting for me (It’s me) Your favorite song From someone wrong Associations with Famous content grifts Selfies with movie stars 1 beer and partying hard You’re unraveling At curtain call He wants to love his songs He kissed his gift so long A rumination Of all he’s lost