Old Hymns

I've got an image in my mind of what is tantamount to manhood And it doesn't look like you If I tailored my existence to facilitate your ease I'd light a matchstick, burn me down and be contented Did it stick in your throat too long Did it leave a bloody divot on your tongue? I swear I never understood this ecstasy so far, so close, so hard to see Calculated sophistry, humming old hymns at me Dysfunction and aggression Breeding sadness and depression Like my daddy and his daddy before oh everything about this needs to change I might be damaged goods but change is worth the fucking effort what the fuck are you waiting for? Does it challenge where we belong? Could it make a bigger difference to leave behind I swear I never understood this ecstasy So far, so close, so hard to see Calculated sophistry, Humming Old Hymns at me Hope for tomorrow Is what's waiting there for me I don't need to wonder if the cancer will take me I just draw on myself I think there's been enough blame to go around for all of us Don't you fucking tell me it's nature or nurture man again and again if I’m gonna be making a difference I don't want or need the chance to be shifting the blame I know I can be erratic, but I don't want the same for my children I never understood this ecstasy so far, so close, so hard to see Calculated sophistry Humming Old Hymns at me