Cattle Hammer’s ‘Methlehem’

ALONE I STAND AS I SHALL REMAIN LASHED TO THE GROUND SHACKLED TO THIS BURDEN I WISH NOONE HARM BUT I LIFE HAS CRUSHED ME A VEIL OF DESPONDENCY CHOKING FOR AIR MOUTH SEWN SHUT SKULL CAKED IN THICK TAR KNIFE THROUGH THE HEART A KNIFE THROUGH THE HEART THIS HEART HAS NO PURPOSE ANYMORE IT BEATS IN SOLITUDE IN THE LONELIEST ROOM AND UNTIL ITS LAST IT BEATS FOR YOU NOTHING WILL EVER BE THE SAME AGAIN AND UNTIL ITS LAST IT ONLY BEATS FOR YOU I AM LOST WOUNDED BLEEDING OUT ALONE DEAD BUT STILL I WALK YET WITH THE INTENSITY OF A MILLION DYING SUNS AND THE TRUTH OF AN INNOCENT NEWBORN SOUL WITH THE SORROW OF A MILLION GRIEVING WIVES WITH A PERMANENCE ETCHED FOR THE REST OF TIME WITH A PAIN, UNIMAGINABLE A PAIN THAT I MUST DESERVE IT WILL ALWAYS BEAT FOR YOU AND NOTHING WILL BE THE SAME AGAIN SO DARK SO QUIET THAT ECHO THAT THUD THE THOUGHTS IN THE DARKNESS CHURNS MY MIND TO PULP A BEING LESS THAN HUMAN REPULSIVE AND ALONE I AM A PLAGUE A CANCER ON EVERYTHING I LOVE MY LOVE IS A PLAGUE A POISON TO ALL THAT I ADORE A PLAGUE A CANCER A POISON I WOULD CARVE THE GRANDEST CATHEDRAL FROM MY FLESH IN YOUR NAME THE BLOOD I WOULD GLADLY SPILL FOR YOU WOULD PUT THE OCEANS OF THE WORLD TO SHAME UNWORTHY UNLOVED I STILL CRY YOUR NAME, MY LOVE DO I EVEN CROSS YOUR MIND? I WOULD END THIS LIFE FOR YOU DO I EVEN CROSS YOUR MIND? AND UNTIL ITS LAST, IT BEATS FOR YOU THE EXHAUSTION CONTINUES AS EACH DAY STARTS ANEW DEAD BUT STILL I WALK I’LL PAY THE PENANCE HOW MUCH SHOULD I PAY? THE TEARS FELL AGAIN TODAY DEAD BUT STILL I WALK ALL OF IT, TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE AND I KNOW I’LL NEVER GET IT BACK SO LET THE UNIVERSE LAUGH AND SPIT IN MY FACE THAT DUMB CUNT FELL FOR IT AGAIN THE BIGGEST JOKE OF THIS JOKE OF A LIFE WHO HEARS THE PUNCHLINE WHEN YOU DIE ALONE? WOULD YOU LOOK ME IN THE EYE AS I BURN MYSELF ALIVE I WOULD LET YOU SLICE THESE WRISTS IF YOUR OTHER HAND HELD MINE DEAD BUT STILL I WALK THE BRAVE FACE ROTTING DOWN MY CHEEK EXPOSED ALONE BROKEN INCOMPLETE DEAD BUT STILL I WALK DO I DIE A COWARD OR LIVE IN PAIN? YOU ARE ALWAYS IN MY HEART IT STILL HOLDS A PLACE FOR YOU YOU ARE ALWAYS IN MY HEART IT WILL ALWAYS AND ONLY BEAT FOR YOU I STILL CRY YOUR NAME, MY LOVE DO I EVEN CROSS YOUR MIND? I WOULD END THIS LIFE FOR YOU DO I EVEN CROSS YOUR MIND?