Source of Suffering

Look around look around nothing is there Look around look around nothing is there Paranoia sets in I will die it feels so real It can't be why is it so? Try to sit up but I can't Try to turn my head to see more but I can't Try to speak out for help but I am unable to I sense my doom I feel a presence just around the corner From my bedroom door It nears closer And I try to yell as loudly as before But nothing happens My cries are muted Sleep Paralysis a bleak analysis My body is bound down with muted cries As Death inches closer I am paralyzed My heart’s pounding out of my chest Muscles flexed I will not rest I await my grisly doom My eyes are screaming within this room I feel its aura slowly inching closer to be seen I'm pushing as hard as I can to scream with no effect What feels like an eternity passes by Sleep Paralysis a bleak analysis

I've been tortured beaten enduring pure torment Sentenced to suffer Callous lack of empathy Devoid of decency You limit my real estate for faith You're a scar on humanity My trust is crushed I am drowning Holding me down while I try to surface for air Lightheartedly inflicting agony Feeding on distress embarrassment misery suffering Lacking guilt remorse for those in pain Now I am reliving my hate How I've strived through my life to be free of your wrath Now I am shielded by the flames that are my fury Sentenced to suffer Callous lack of empathy Devoid of decency You limit my real estate for faith You're a scar on humanity Anti-role model that I despise Now I look down on your life

My time has come time to operate! Steeped in sickness entangled in filth I alone am facing death Immersed in pain awaiting darkness as the light is fading away Opened up I feel new pain Sensations are uniquely obtained Cruelty is alive and well Victimized I am still alive A drug induced state of unparalleled misery The operation takes its toll Feeling pain I cannot control (end this) How much damage have I endured? To what extent have I been cured? Stuck with needles filled with drugs My body is on fire screaming, endlessly A sharp turn a tragedy Loss of blood feeling weak Rush into emergency Fear and pain rips through my brain Life or death awaits The operation takes its toll Feeling pain I cannot control (end this) How much damage have I endured? To what extent have I been cured? Oozing infected blood Internally bleeding Infections are not healing Critical state treatment unexplained No accountability no admitting mistakes Steeped in sickness entangled in filth I alone am facing death Immersed in pain awaiting darkness as the light is fading away Opened up I feel new pain Sensations are uniquely obtained Cruelty is alive and well Victimized I am still alive

Behind a fake smile lies a world of evil A psychological game that I see through A despicable soul an owner of many faces You are sweet at first not asking for much But explode when your vices are taken from you You lie to my face Feed me misinformation You would snitch on your friends To me when they betray you Shameless nothing is too low for you You have shown me that true evil exists Demon screaming out You would burn bridges for your next hit Sheer terror filled harrowing insanity pours from your body All smiles to true evil in the blink of an eye Violence is always an option when you’re at the end of your rope Convulsions on the floor attention whore Shameless nothing is too low for you You have shown me that true evil exists Demon screaming out You would burn bridges for your next hit Tensions are high as you're nearly dry I hear you go off near the wrong person When I come over I see blood on your face And you playing the victim Put in your place this is your fate You deserve nothing less

There are no more words I have nothing to say This is in essence loss of existence while memories fade To never know the secrets of life To be denied by a hopeless death I feel insane awaiting enchained to the cycle of my decay I scream at the abyss I hear no more sound I see no more light Everything around feels as black as night Emptiness fills my soul My consciousness collapses within Swallowed whole into the void I return

In a universe incomprehensibly complex Only within the mind do limitations persist For what is possible to exist There is no limit to evil Things can always be worse To our perceptions there are no patterns Not everything can be predicted or understood You can always fall further Chaos creates these opportunities And it also destroys preconceptions Inside of limiting systems And without limits on evil There are also no limits on good No limits on what is acheivable on what is attainable To our perceptions there are no patterns Not everything can be predicted or understood You can always climb higher All things are possible Step outside yourself and transcend reality All things are possible Step outside yourself and transcend reality All things are possible Step outside yourself and transcend reality All things are possible Step outside yourself and transcend reality

Stuck in a reflection The mind grows weak Staring into nothing Forever in vanity To be without A deeper purpose To feel the doubt From your peers Basic human attraction Turns inwardly Vying for attention Forever in vanity Drowning in affinity You are trapped in vanity It is a race that cannot be won Where the rules are ever changing The real prize is defeat And the real loss is to race another day A road paved in victories dead ends In emptiness

For six years I was your guest Only knowing this in the last year I feared your precense And your intent Watching my life Hearing my life Knowing my life Wanting me to yourself The Unseen One You made others wish to end their life So you could have me to yourself You made them want to die Sick loathsome spirit With an apetite for suicide Existing beyond consequence Envious of the living Squeezing my heart Beating in your cold grasp From beyond Knowing or not knowing Your true form Or intentions Hearing the words you speak While I try to fall asleep "Don't leave" Manifested connected To this space Dead and gone True purpose incomplete I am free you are not I move on while you rot You persist for your next guest While my heart beats in my chest