Longing to be Dragged into Sunlight

I’ve awaited this moment so long This sharpened stake at my breast This wreathe of garlic tied ‘round my slender neck with silver wire … But superstitions cannot Kill me Cannot free me from my endless torment My body has become so heavy My mind so full of nails I long to see the sun and moon And stars and roses and lovers … But I am blind Like a bat with deafened ears I am trapped within my own corpse I am deceased I long to cease I long to take control Of my destiny and free my mind And free my tired soul This earth holds so little for me now aside from pain Aside from self imposed Anguish in isolation I reach for the cleansing fire I claw towards the light of the sun I’ve awaited this moment so long With heavy chain wrapped ‘round my neck A mob of straining living bodies Dragging me from my home Towards the sun Towards the light Towards the end Towards freedom They arrive to kill me Their sun sinking in the west The frigid shackles of my night Tighten ‘round my spine I let them take me I let them spit in face I no longer care what they do I no longer drag my weight I let myself go limp I let myself expire I welcome myself into the light I welcome eternal fire This night holds so little For me now aside from shame Aside from self imposed Hatred and despair I reach for the cleansing fire I claw towards the light of the sun