Primordial Decay

Life is an endless spiral of decay and hope, the brightest blackness you could ever conjure. Change is as inevitable as it is terrifying, and charting a course for navigation through actualization and understanding of self has never been more imperative. The fight for a more forgiving and authentic future is at our doorstep but they stole the keys and welded the deadbolts shut.

Primordial Decay is a reimagining of 5 songs created in 2006-07 for a split album that was later pressed to CD (the first time I had ever had material formally published on a physical medium). Having just started out as musician, the songs were quite rough so when I unearthed the original files in 2021 after the release of The Dark Being, it felt like an obvious choice for revisiting. Approaching the songwriting with all the knowledge & stylistic influence I've gained in the almost two decades since the initial release, these updated songs quickly took on a life of their own and became so much more than I could have ever hoped for, bearing only the faintest resemblance to what I was capable of creating in my youth. After many delays and some financial hardship, I'm so excited and proud to finally publish this album in full.

Thematically, the album deals with concepts ranging from the death & destruction of the modern world to the crushing fist of mental illness/addiction to the unending struggle of existing as a trans person in an oppressively antagonistic social structure. Instrumental music has always been my primary interest so composing lyrics to fit the music I made ended up being one of the more difficult parts of this project, but it was an absolute pleasure to work with such talented vocalists who truly helped bring this album to life.

A big thank you to: all the collaborating/remixing musicians for their time and efforts, J for lending your bass guitar to the cause and for the unconditional emotional support, Dan P. and the entire Bee Side Cassettes family for publishing my music, every single person that's supported this project from the start (but most especially Kirk M., Hazel M., Cin R., June G., Liz G., Gabi B., and Willow W.), Magenta Skull for the litany of foundational sample packs that formed the backbone to much of this album, and of course my lil prince Kodie <3