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Lost Fade Fall Disappear This endless state This darkened embrace Embittered tears Scar this featureless night Shattered self in pieces In this blind negation Forget the touch of a lover Forget the warmth of the sun Asking for an answer From the shadowless nether Only mocking laughter And pitiless sighs As formless spectres taunt me From these torturous dreams Laid in a pile of skin Discarded waste Lost Fade Fall Disappear Devoid

Blinding light Overtakes me Surging in this aching ecstacy Overwhelmed Overstimulated Pleasure turns to searing, sharpened pain A moment of clarity In this dull, black and white vision Light calls, beckoning From this tomb of sullen misery The sky is on fire Setting alight these pale remains No rite, no pyre Only smoke that guides the way To red skies above To the endless horizon The blazing sun takes me In its scorching, glowing arms No soul to witness The collapse of the body The release of the soul A burnt desolation Insignificant In the ever-burning sky A cloud of despair And bitter reminiscence

I want you to fade away Into an endless nothingness Starless, a meaningless void Heartless, a frail, aching mind Starless Heartless A dull, throbbing pain Permeates my tired soul Ceaseless reminders of failure Relentless in their grasp Ceaseless Relentless Worthless Useless Cast into the abyss These vestiges of suffering Drowning in a vast expanse Of bloodstained memories Empty promises and failure Obscured by a distant mirage Leaving only this flesh Leaving only this weary soul Burn the flesh from my bones Throw the ashes to the nether Spit on the graves of your kin All must fade to nothing - all must end

Lost in twilight Amidst dead fog Drifting Fading, heavy words Turn to nothingness Futile Disgusting, rotting in shame Bleating, pathetic Filth Drag this tired vessel Into endless night Bleak, weary husk Fragile, fleeting mind Filled with loss and longing Filled but not alive Feeling everything and nothing Another fucking lie Feeling everything and nothing Another fucking lie Pitiful and petulant A self-indulgent sigh Bound, mocking hands Weave a fabric of ash Deluded self-hatred Whip, scar, and lash Shallow shaking breath fuels trembling desire Desperately reaching, searching Through a thick haze of frozen vision For an answer from the cold barren night I can’t see The truth of these illusions Sleepless, restless Spectres float amongst dreamless tendrils Grasping, aching, yearning Greedily devouring all Blindly groping the thick, black air Perverted absence in spiteful emptiness Wander in the dark Embittered solitude Alone, tortured Disappear

A passerine song echoes through the silence of this tomb A solitary sparrow’s cry in the depths of infinite despondency Their cries carry on through the distance Torn and desperate They are forsaken, they are forsaken By the sun A passerine song echoes through the silence of this tomb Their cries carry on through the distance Torn and desperate They are forsaken, they are forsaken By the sun Their souls fly away As lost, fragmented dreams Carried through the clouds Of blackbirds on the horizon Amidst this world of loss Of hatred and disease Songs lost to the aether Songs lost to weary ears On wings of sorrow Plummeting to oblivion Deathsong’s sweet release As birds fall to the nether

I walked with heavy footsteps Weighed down by a longing for more More than this distant dream, these tattered thoughts Lingered on a final, yearning breath