Repercussion

What could I even say about What good would it do to try What do I say when I'm gone What do I say when I walked away What do I Say after the fall When I turned my tail and I ran back to safety I knew I was the only one The only one who could escape But what was I meant to do What was I meant to I left Not looking back until everyone else had found footing on their own Now Only years later I'm Learning so much Learning how dark things would Get I cant pretend It wasnt best for me To wash my hands for the time But all the same The guilt chokes all the life from me Thoughts of what could be and What would be avoided if I could Just sit with myself I Struggle with the thought (The) thought that the only way out was to just hit eject I Can't trust the outcome when I was the only I was the only one Why Did it end up like this I Didnt want to go like this I Dont know what to do from here I'll just keep moving and I'll just keep pace until I Cant Everyone saying how they fucking get it All while telling me how fast it changed How can I trust that there is no resentment How can I believe it's all Water Under the bridge now When I Learned how Hard it Was on you I wished I would have stayed but We all Know that Wouldnt Fix anything It still tears into me