Sick & Tired (HRT! Version)

I've tried the positive outlook Say the grass on my side is greener Did not notice how much of it took Fake that smile and change my demeanor For too long I held my head up high As if nothing at all was the matter Turns out in fact it can hurt to try And now you're forced to stop pretending all together I could use new feet to walk with Different hands on the steering wheel Fresh eyes to see the world with Untouched skin with which to feel Cause I don't want this body anymore Drop it off at a secondhand store Grab me a new face of the shelf Cause I'm so sick and tired Of being myself So you thought that I had a thick skin But I'm a porcelain doll wrapped in duct tape And I wish the fragile parts would just break So the whole thing can just be replaced I could use new feet to walk with Different hands on the steering wheel Fresh eyes to see the world with Untouched skin with which to feel Cause I don't want this body anymore Drop it off at a secondhand store Grab me a new face of the shelf Cause I'm so sick and tired Of being myself And I can see the chains crystal clear But don't have the strength to break them So many words on the tip of my tongue But lack the courage to say them Good old days are in short supply I'm banking on experience to fake them As I'm juggling these thoughts hoping they would stop But I don't have a way to make them I could use new feet to walk with Different hands on the steering wheel Fresh eyes to see the world with Untouched skin with which to feel Cause I don't want this body anymore Drop it off at a secondhand store Grab me a new face of the shelf Cause I'm so sick and tired Of being myself