All I Want To Know Is How It Ends

Lost sight of any tunnel Light my fire with darkness Shadow caste Gilt with tears Absurd distinction Between beauty & repulsion Melting their flesh like sand and wax Returned to dust Devouring as this portal grew Nightmares fire the imagination Mysterious force injects the herd Into the bowels of our beasts Only now the gate Starved and animate Consumed with hellish winds And fire Teeth, lungs and heart You took me into you All blue is black no life is pure Desensitising viral parasitic form Investing its host dependent semiotic Obscene transcendence fixated with violence Control the extrusion explains away the acts In the name of a hateful litany Indifferent to the toils Of those I feel should know But cruel this nature is not Unflinching, unfeeling Dispassionate, deaf To the visceral murmur Finite and fractal When it comes And still with anger as I think about you in death every day The absurd and grotesque – the abject order of existence My stomach churning and every turn of wheels of my disgust Sometimes I’m at peace with the terror, The hand of entropy we are promised Now do you say as your every very slowly being Returns to the aether from whence it came How did you think this would be? What did you expect of me?