Shmaltz

I said yes to play a date and then all that I felt was terror and dread on a daybed they filled my cup 50 milligrams and then I drank it up at the end of time and space I wasn't me I had no face frozen in time nothing vibrates but it's okay 'cause now I know that I am dead I am death it sang I am dead I am death on a plane of colored light fractal eyes, a sacred wolf and snakes that glow Universe, this all you got? Universe said, "Bitch please, you already know" we're only here to break the chains to let go of shit the love will remain it's this old soul's last spin around this pretty blue dot I'm heaven bound 'cause I am dead I am death it sang I am dead I am it's all over but the crying suffering can't be denied can't push it away or run and hide we're packing up shop it's closing time let it all go unclench your mind 'cause I am dead I am

have fun sweetheart those words were blistering in both my ears when you ran out of here your Roman empire is wasted you wanna blame me for your failings the more you run your mouth the more we disappear the gloss of the unshed tears in your eyes that wouldn't fall until you recognized my face the way it was when you loved me your eyes bored holes through me and erased the love we use to share and I disappeared there's no telling at all with us

( gimme all your love'n, all your fuck'n love'n) your love is like a revolution now I don't know just what to think my mind is lost out in the ocean you push my heart up to the brink I'll laugh it off take it in stride scenarios play in my mind of how I could have played it right let's start again don't wanna fight now ( gimme all your love'n, all your fuck'n love'n) lets take it back to the beginning so many details to adore you shot my heart just like a cherub and now you stomp it on the floor I can't let go won't be denied 3 simple words could ease my mind but you play me just like a drum I end up dazed completely numb I pace the floor these sleepless nights I am a rose diseased by blight but you plucked me up anyway I need you now don't go away love ( gimme all your love'n, all your fuck'n love'n)

white of your thigh parallel lines where you calf disappears the ripples are smeared calm as the clouds trapped in the cloth when the threads come undone do we wade in or run? cursive in white now you're wet to the touch I'd swim after you but it won't be enough cursive in white now you're wet to the touch I'd swim after you but it's never enough the hemmed edge obscures more of the sun in a pillar of shade that cuts like a blade feet going numb under algae scum when the bloom happens here will we give into fear? cursive in white now you're wet to the touch I'd swim after you but it won't be enough cursive in white now you're wet to the touch I'd swim after you but it's never enough wooden pins trap me to your line like a white flag I'm here just hung out to dry wooden pins leave dents in my skin take me down fold me up put me back in the bin

the blinds are drawn to block the dawn you're bathed in flickered candle light all I want is a place you and I can hide away for a while the ink is dry the concrete's set there's nothing left to circumvent all I want is a place you and I can hide away for a while we're haunted by a past that wants to hold us back fighting demons in our minds we can't attack you give me the courage that I lack that's why I work so hard to give you more and why I'm sure you're all I want you're all I got you're all I need

words escape your chaos mind we're the blind leading the blind all the hurt that you opine it's a front, 'cause I'll be alright be alright darling you're stubble rakes against my frozen chin we stumble through the bustling boulevard all our vices fall down with us our love is sound, we bounce back and turn this around it's the dawn of a new time the bourgeois out of their minds you and I are not like that kind you're afraid, but I'll be alright be alright darling your open arms reach out to take me in I melt into your snow covered coat all my fear dissolve right there with them you're always around we'll bounce back and turn this around we'll turn this around

love of my life I need you so so much in your arm I long to be if I could erase the pain that brought you here then I would do it happily in your darkest hour there's no need to fear just breathe and I'll be with you love of my life I know the path ahead has bumps and rocks along the way we gotta push past the things that trip us up and forgive ourselves along the way in your darkest hour there's no need to fear just breathe and I'll be with you when you're all alone I'm with you call me on the phone I'm with you through the uphill climb I'm with you 'till the end of time I'm with you in your darkest hour there's no need to fear just breathe and I'll be with you love of my life I need you so so much

come into your own in time to see jack boots marching carve a little path and then the sea washes it away they're out living life blinded by white knuckles but it doesn't matter now it doesn't matter a kind of meaning a sort of purpose a reason why this keeps happening to us I'll just be a doo wop girl and sing "hey la hey la" I'm not gonna worry 'bout all the chattering on Imma suck these lungs full of this rarified air 'cause it doesn't matter now it doesn't matter a kind of meaning a sort of purpose a reason why this keeps happening to us what's gonna happen is gonna happen it doesn't matter now it doesn't matter

I can't read your mind I've tried a thousand times before I hung your picture up I'm the boat and you're the oar I fire it up sometimes a piece of my mind to ward you off baby don't let go of me I'll fire it up sometimes a piece of my mind then wall it off baby just wait it out and see it's apparent that a kind of end is getting near but I can't go for that 'cause I don't operate on fear I fire it up sometimes a piece of my mind to ward you off baby don't let go of me I'll fire it up sometimes a piece of my mind then wall it off baby just wait it out and see everyone's on full alarm my baby shrill alarm bells ringing out my baby