Tug of Time

I wanted to show you my loyalty I wanted for this to last forever If you were ever to fall down I would carry you home Cyanide on a cliff, together, we go like this Remember all we did, feet in the air, over ocean This, this is the end, this is the end, this is the end, this is the end of everything that we know This, this is the end, this is the end, this is the end, this is the end of everything that we became What could we have been I don't know, but I cry to think Poison is too painful Fingers on the triggers Try to recognize, but truth, it fades Signs deteriorate Time after time, after time, after time Winds miss my sails, this isn't fair This isn't fair, at all Try to keep track of the lies, to keep myself oriented right But it doesn't make sense No, it doesn't make any sense to us Found my north star And it leads me to you, back home Back home Back home

The way out is treacherous The lighthouse is not shining All of the energy I have left Has to go to escaping this sinking ship I tried to bring warmth and comfort to your life I let go of insecurities Now I'm here beside myself with nothing Looking out the window and all I see A dead and hollow world Empty without you My memories are fading The times that I once considered to be The highest I could ever reach Stuck replaying moments over and over and over Wilting garden in my mind again It's over Now I'm here beside myself with nothing Looking out the window and all I see A dead and hollow world Empty without you

"Hold on tight to me because What's outside is far, far worse" The vows were empty Could not reciprocate Effortless That's not how we were raised Venomous Devoid of common grace And how the smallest tensions Turned into resentment Nothing here left to save How'd it get that way? "Hold on tight to me because What's outside is far, far worse" The vows were empty Could not reciprocate If it gets any worse I don't know if I will make it If it gets any worse Learning how to do this on my own If it gets any worse I don't know if I will make it If it gets any worse... I've been staying up later and later Learning how to do this on my own It's not your fault I couldn't do it either But I can't make it to where I belong anymore "Hold on tight to me because What's outside is far, far worse" The vows were empty Could not reciprocate "Hold on tight to me because What's outside is far, far worse" The vows were empty Could not reciprocate I'll be glad when I forget you

Making memories last Is what I've lacked Can't seem to recall A single second of it all And why would I go back? It's done with, it's over now How can find a way to move on? Tell myself the truth of The sands of the past are not a beachfront property Nearly breaking down every week Forcing my way through agony Making a name for myself Without you here to congratulate The shifting grains compel me But there's nothing waiting there The holy matrimony is dead And I have to wake up How can find a way to move on? Tell myself the truth of The sands of time are not a beachfront property And I don't even want one

Ended my search Found what I sought Well that went out the window With the bath water Feel this deficit daily But I'm learning how to go Alone I think back to childhood Looking out past the trees Wondering if there was anything more I already I found it Tug of time Pulls me close To the ghost of us Can't let go She knows me well Better than anyone else Loved me for myself I think back to when I saw your face across my screen Never again will I feel the floor fall, like you did to me Tug of time Pulls me close To the ghost of us Can't let go if I tried And I have, and I am, and I did I did it, I did it to myself And I did it to us I'm sorry Oh, I'm sorry