I Think I Used To Matter

It's just me, you know 5' 10", 130 pounds I spend nights at home It seems lonely but I rather like it I sleep alone The Matthews family tucks me in each night And I try to fight it But I want that life You made me something I despise But I can't put that on you Well, I guess I just did Something I can't shake 'Cause I fall apart when you look at me Habits I can't break Like a cringe entry in a diary I feel like I could die, feel like I could die Don't know till you try Could die and day now Something I can't shake 'Cause I fall apart when you look at me Leave me alone As far as I'm concerned you reached a new low When you said you liked me better like this I'm sleeping alone I get a full 8 hours now that you don't keep me up You can't keep me up You made me something I despise But I can't put that on you anymore Something I can't shake 'Cause I fall apart when you look at me Habits I can't break Like a cringe entry in a diary I feel like I could die, feel like I could die Let's try this one more time Could die and day now Something I can't shake 'Cause I fall apart 'Cause I fall apart when you look at me 'Cause I fall apart I think I used to matter We'd spend all our nights Watching MTV on your parents' couch And it's not that I want that back It's just the fact that we don't talk And when we do, it's weird And I don't want that No, I don't want that I think I used to matter We'd spend all our nights Watching MTV on your parents' couch And it's not that I want that back It's just the fact that we don't talk And when we do, it's weird And I don't want that No, I don't want that I think I used to matter I think I used to matter