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Merit Gentile

Little Brain

Bleary

May 15th, 2026
11 tracks
38:39
Little Brain
Little Brain
sugar splint
0:00
2:55
sugar splint
Bleary
I forget, what year was it when you broke your wrist when we were both kids? They tied it with a sugar splint Your heads on straight but your heart got bent I was after something You were stopping time Going through the motions Fall apart on the inside So bad I was feeling like nobody inside Trying Not to sink so deep this time I still see you sometimes I get nostalgic this time of year And I'm not doing well without you here I was after something You were stopping time Going through the motions Fall apart on the inside So bad I was feeling like nobody inside Trying Not to sink so deep this time I still see you sometimes I still see you sometimes Sometimes
2:55
foyer
Bleary
I was spaced out in the foyer Trying to keep my shit together You were planted in the backyard Gazing up at the stars Who knows where the years go Been here once before I want you so bad Wake up on the floor and every bone hurts Make it on my own or something like that I know they're only words but I would do anything Scalding myself in the shower Purifying me with water But it's not enough I turn it up I don't make a sound I just glow like an ember Who knows where the years go Been here once before I want you so bad Wake up on the floor and every bone hurts Make it on my own or something like that I know they're only words but I would do anything I'm waiting for some kind of sign Give me something to find I feel it for the first time, overdrive It gets lonely at night I'm all hung up on that time you and I tore a hole in the sky I've been here once before I want you so bad Wake up on the floor and every bone hurts. I'll make it on my own or something like that. I know they're only words, but I would do anything.
4:03
925
Bleary
Work a nine to five just die on the carpet Asking myself, was it all worth it? Prodding the beehive Fall asleep in a snake pit Sick of myself Done with this bull shit Nine to five to die On the carpet Nine to five to die Do I have to? One day I'll wake up In the morning sun Smelling the flowers Smile at everyone And I try but it hurts I'm just a worm in the dirt Watching the vultures at work Waiting to wake up Nine to five to die On the carpet Nine to five to die Do I have to?
2:21
bug
Bleary
Feel like a bug I'm too small to keep up with your talking Just say something real Squashed on the sidewalk People keep walking around me I'm disgusting I keep on flying into the light I could disappear completely In the time it takes to count it down from three And I'm wasting, receding How do I go back? I want control, want it all I'm no puppet on a string just waiting For something real Cut the thread, get out of bed I'm trying not to sink into the deep end Yeah this bug's swimming I could disappear completely In the time it takes to count it down from three. And I'm wasting, receding How do I go back? I've got a bone to pick with God She's taking her time lately I hoped my best would be enough She's making a mess of me. How do I go back?
3:57
whalesong
Bleary
I keep falling in love All these new creative ways to waste my time I can't run away from this Every time I try I can't fight what's in your eyes If I could do something right For once in my life I would dance Spin you around I could treat you alright For more than just one night Your skinny legs won't touch the ground When I woke up you were sleeping All twisted in the sheets your body was warm and clean I want to untangle you Run my fingers through your hair and feel your heartbeat I could really do this all night I could really take my time I could really do this all night I could really take my time I could really do this all night I could really take my time I could really do this all night I could really take my time If I could do something right For once in my life I would dance Spin you around I could treat you alright For more than just one night Your skinny legs won't touch the ground
4:00
hurt people
Bleary
A light's gone out I dream about all the sleepless Nights beside you Thoughts like whirlpools Carry me downstream Trying to come clean Keeping secrets but I can't lie Carry on like it's alright Hurt people Hurt people Hurt people Hurt people A house on fire A shame that the grass was never Green eyes staring at the ceiling Looking right through me Make me feel ugly Remember how we used to love How you made me bleed Made me so tough Hurt people Hurt people Hurt people Hurt people Alone at home I watch the grass grow Waiting for time to swallow me In the night I keep my eyes closed And I've got you to thank for that Pull me under Draw me closer Fuck me over Pull me under Draw me closer Fuck me over I succumb to it
3:14
soft & rotten
Bleary
When I drive down your street I break every bone in my body That's with fine me Cause all of my senses Are falling through the roof, the roof It must be something to do with you, with you I must be out of my mind Sing me sad song tonight Give me a reason to cry It's been a while since I've even tried I've gotten so soft and rotten inside How can I tell the truth? (Only want) Want to die right next to you And I try to forget I was wasted, waist-deep in love You held my heart and dropped it I just wasn't good enough It must be something to do with you, with you It must be something to do with you, with you I must be out of my mind Sing me sad song tonight Give me a reason to cry It's been a while since I've even tried I've gotten so soft and rotten inside How can I tell the truth? (Only want) Want to die right next to you
3:53
seer
Bleary
I tried to read it in the stars That never got me very far Always looking at the sky Too busy to realize Holding onto moments I've lost Never really know till it's gone My crystal ball has broken in two I'm starting to fall I'm starting to see the truth Don't have to wonder why Sometimes you know when it's right It's like I opened my eyes for the first time I'm waiting for love Tracing the lines along your palm Holding hands all summer long Swirling aether in your eyes It takes me to the other side Holding onto moments I've lost Never really know till it's gone All I ever wanted was to be a seer Show you all the good Make myself a mirror My crystal ball has broken in two I'm starting to fall I'm starting to see the truth Don't have to wonder why Sometimes you know when it's right It's like I opened my eyes for the first time I'm waiting for love
3:17
little brain
Bleary
Light comes in The window's dim Mornings feel the same Search my little brain For something I can change I can change Fill a cup to fuck me up I don't know how I'll sleep this off All that I wanted Turned out all rotten I can change I can change Staring into the trashcan In the corner of your room In a pool of my own making I see myself My reflection You wanted something I never offered I was a fish just drowning in water You wanted something I never figured out If I'm going nowhere, can I go there with you? The sound of two hearts in a vacuum If I'm gonna be someone, can I be that to you? I swear on my life I'll be someone we both like Hanging out after midnight I think I knew you in a past life All that's around us Fades into darkness I look around but you're all I'm seeing It might not be much but here is my offer I'm still a fish just drowning in water Maybe it's something we don't have to figure out If I'm going nowhere, can I go there with you? The sound of two hearts in a vacuum If I'm gonna be someone can I be that to you I swear on my life I'll be someone we both like
4:18
hungry ghost
Bleary
Hungry ghost you're all alone And you haunt a house Where no one's home I don't fear you My heart's a messy bedroom I fold my hands in my lap like clothes Did you burn your eyes Looking directly at the light Was it too much weight to hold Do you feel like a ghost When you're alone Are you always wanting more Wandering hallways You're restless all day You're throwing fits just like a child I get weird too But I'm learning how to love you I'll give you space But I'll take mine Did you burn your eyes Looking directly at the light Was it ever mine to have Was it ever mine to hold I could make it through the night So quietly dying So hold me back Hold me down I'll bit my tongue till it's gone I don't want to be the one who lets go I don't want to be the one who lets go Is it too much weight Do you feel like a ghost When you're alone Are you always wanting more Is it too much weight Do you feel like a ghost When you're alone Do you see me there
4:20
fastboy
Bleary
Run my mouth till my tongue falls out I pick it up But I forget what I was on about Driving fast I scream with all the windows Wasting gas I do it just to hear the sound I'm lying awake with this feeling What I'm trying to say is I'm reeling Cut down trees and build a town We could save the world Or burn it down On the couch till my brain falls out I pick it up But I forget what I was on about Hold my breath I count to ten and back again Tunnel vision Full periphery destruction I'm lying awake with this feeling What I'm trying to say is I'm reeling Cut down trees and build a town We could save the world Or burn it down
2:21

Across its 11 tracks, Little Brain is a thoughtful and melancholic album wrestling with finding comfort in memory, identity and intimacy. The dense guitars and soft abrasion of the band’s shoegaze sound are grounded by the unique vocal interplay between Callan Dwan and Peter Mercer, whose harmonies blur into each other rather than compete. It’s a debut shaped by years of labor, where the intimacy of its lyrics meets the weight of everything the band poured into making it.

Written and recorded slowly between 2019 and 2025, the album grew out of fragments that existed even before the release of their 2019 EP Gates (Cold Lunch Recording). Early on, Bleary’s process revolved around writing songs, playing them live, and reshaping them in front of audiences. When the pandemic halted that rhythm, the band turned inward. Songs were passed back and forth as demos. A home recording setup built by Callan Dwan and Taro Yamazaki opened new doors, letting the band chase textures and arrangements that wouldn’t have been possible in a traditional rehearsal space. What started as necessity became a creative shift that defined the record.

The first recording sessions took place during peak COVID with Joshua Ditty, tracking the earliest completed songs. As writing continued and schedules filled with touring and outside projects, the rest of the album came together with Mike Purcell at County Q. Though the songs were compositionally finished before entering the studio, Bleary treated recording as part of the writing process, layering and experimenting relentlessly. The result is a dense, immersive album, with some tracks carrying dozens of guitar layers, built through patience and obsession.

Lyrically, Little Brain touches on the struggles of finding your place. Sometimes literally about that nagging feeling of guilt, of not being enough or the melancholy of forgetting a lost loved one. The themes are universal but articulated with melancholy eloquence throughout the record; a testament to the lyrical prowess of Dwan and Mercer. It can be heart heavy but never without a comforting familiarity.

Bleary's members are all active musicians outside the band, a reality that stretched Little Brain’s timeline but also sharpened it. Years spent touring and collaborating fed back into the songs, deepening the band’s usage of space and restraint. Little Brain emerges as an accumulation: ideas written on futons, reworked in bedrooms, expanded in studios, and refined quietly for years.

Credits

Performed by Callan Dwan, Peter Mercer, Taro Yamazaki, Luke Fedorko
Composition & Lyrics by Callan Dwan, Peter Mercer

Recording on ‘sugar splint’, ‘925’, ‘bug’, and ‘whalesong’ by Joshua Ditty Everything else recorded by, mixed by and mastered by Mike Purcell

Photos and Artwork by Merit Gentile

Dedicated to Brian Dwan

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